Monday, May 31, 2010

What I learned this weekend...

I saw SATC2 this weekend and despite the bad reviews I loved it!  It made me get so excited about my trip to Dubai and it makes me so much more thankful and appreciative of my life!  There was a scene in the movie where Carrie goes back to her old apartment to write for a few days.  When she walked in that door to HER space and set the keys down I thought "Oh yeah, I will miss that."  I realized that no matter how much I want to share my life with someone else I will miss my space and my me time.  For everything you add to your life- a husband, kids, etc.- that is more time taken away from you.  It will no longer be all about you.  You will have to compromise on everything.  I realized I need to enjoy this single girl time more because I will miss it.  I mean if I was married I wouldn't have been able to just up and decide to go on a 10 day mission trip half way across the world.  I would have had to take someone else's wants, needs, and opinions into consideration.  I need to enjoy this time where it is all about me.  It made me think of another great SATC quote:

"...the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself.  And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."

I also watched a couple other movies this weekend.  (I have approximately 4 channels on my TV and there was not a thing on any of them!)  Anyway, one of the movie I watched was Post Grad with the girl from The Gilmore Girls.  In it she has her whole life planned out, but when she graduates, the real world doesn't deliver what she was expecting.  It was an ok movie, not great.  But one thing I learned from the movie was that I built a pretty awesome life for myself.  I may not have had my life so planned out like she did.  I more flew by the seat of my pants, but I feel like I have made a great life for myself.  I have a great house.  I drive one of my dream cars.  I have what a lot of people would consider a dream job that I am loving so far.  I have been able to travel to a lot of awesome places and will soon be flying off half way across the world- a trip that I never thought I would raise enough money for, but I didn't let that stop me, and now it a few short weeks it will be actually happening.  I'm proud of where I am and lucky to have made it here!

I also watched a movie called The Stoning of Soraya M.  It is a powerful movie and you should go watch it.  During the movie I was just too shocked and mad that something like this could really happen.  But at the end when they reiterated that it was a true story and that still today women get stoned to death, it just made me start bawling and immediately praying and asking God how he could allow this to happen and to please help these women and the men who would do something like that.

I also got to go with my BFF and her 4 year old son to the Museum of Life and Science in Durham.  We spent 4 hours exploring this awesome place.  We rode a choo choo train, explored the butterfly house, saw farm animals, went on a dinosaur trail, saw some black bears, a wolf, lemurs, some owls, creepy crawly insects and more!  They had lots of cool exhibits where you could learn and play.  I had a great time!  I hardly ever get to spend time around kids so I was kind of afraid of how I would be able to handle a bunch of 4 and 5 year olds all day in Dubai.  But I feel a lot more confident now.  There is no reason to be afraid because for the most part they are really fun! It made me smile when Cohen wanted to sit beside me on the train and hold my hand as we walked through the park later in the day.  If I can win over one of them, I think I can do this!  I just hope half of them are as well behaved as he is.

I did a lot more this weekend- I feel like a whole week has passed by!  But there was one thing I did not do...I did not see the ex!  Come on, ya'll should know me by now!  I mean that whole situation was just so wrong on so many levels and it showed me he has not changed at all.  He has issues he needs to work out on his own.  Yes, it was a lot to take in- my ex hid the fact that he was getting married- or even dating someone!- from me and he is in complete denial about it and had the gall to tell me it was because he wasn't over me.  Whatever...after I had a few hours to process it, I just thought the whole thing was kind of ridiculous.  I saw a great quote that pretty much sums it all up-

God sometimes removes a person from your life for your protection. Don't run after them.  -Rick Warren

God has put me in a pretty good place right now and I need to enjoy it and not let anyone steal that happiness away and let go the people that would.

Overall it was a great weekend!  I hope yours was just as fabulous!


Sam said...

I'm glad someone else liked SATC2 too! :) It was great. I'm so excited for you to go to Dubai.. it seems so surreal! And kudos on keeping the ex away.

Amber @ A Little Pink in the Cornfields said...

I loved SATC2 too! The sets and the clothing (most of it anyway) was phenomenal! :)
I'm so glad you didn't go see the ex. I don't even have to know him to know you can do soooooo much better!
Glad you had a fabulous weekend! :)

EKN said...

Awww I love your post! Glad you had a great weekend and had some time for yourself!

woodlandsblonde said...

I totally agree girl - you've got to let him go!

That's why we have free will :) I think you learned what you could from the situation and have decided to move on.

It's not always easy to do the right thing when someone's messing with your heart - but I'm proud of you!

Classy in Philadelphia said...

You're going to Dubai?!?!?! SOOO jealous!!!!

Just added your blog to my reader :)