Happiness is something you have to choose. Sometimes you have to force the mean, worried, sad, lonely, defeated, hopeless, and drama filled things out of your mind to let the happiness back in and that is what I am going to try to do everyday. I'll let myself be mean, sad, angry but I will no longer hold on to it. I will force those thoughts out as quickly as possible. I'm not letting anyone steal my happiness and I'm not going to sabotage myself by being someone I don't want to be.
I'm leaving for the beach again tonight after work. Yay! There is something about that place. I've been going there for 25+ years every summer, so in a way it is like going home. To a beautiful, relaxing, soothing home!
In exactly one week I will turn 30. And I am not letting myself freak out. It's just a day in my life. And really I should be happy I made it! I survived my tumultuous teens and crazy, twisty-turvy, amazing twenties! I think my thirties will bring more calm inside my soul and more satisfaction in my life. And I'm trying not to look at the list (everyday) and count how many things I won't mark off by the deadline. It's not a contest right? and it's not like I am going to die next Thursday and never get a chance to mark them off right? It's not the finish line, just a mile marker. That was the one downside of the list...it is kind of making 30 seem like The End.
I've been trying to discover some new music lately because music can soothe the soul. I am loving this new band I found called Skyfactor. I randomly stumbled on one of their songs, and I love them all!
Here's some other things on my current playlist:
Suggestions by Orelia Has Orchestra
Jack and Jill by Katie Herzig
the City of Black & White album by Mat Kearney
You Make it Real by James Morrison
the Daydreams album by Skyfactor
American Boy by Estelle
Brighter than Sunshine by Aqualung (my absolute favorite song ever!)
Light Up My Room by Barenaked Ladies
Dusk and Summer by Dashboard Confessional
Only You by Joshua Radin
Love by Matt White
and some good ole Jack Johnson
Can you tell I am trying to embrace the chill?
What on your playlist today?? Give me some more suggestions!
Oh and P.S. I finally switched to gmail! My new email is ncsuzblogs (at) gmail (dot) com. So if you have G-chat, add me!
Thursday, August 5, 2010
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I loved this post! Sometimes I feel the same way when I make a list... like if I don't achieve everything on it that I'm somehow behind. Good for you being laid back about your upcoming birthday! Hope it's a FABULOUS one!!
Oh, and I just bought the "Brighter than Sunshine" song- you are right; it is awesome :)
Thanks! I've been looking for some new music to add to my ipod. :)
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