This has not been a very good week. I have been in a FUNK. I'm negative nelly. I'm pessimistic. I'm complaining. I have a short fuse with people. I am frustrated at work. I am frustrated at home. My friends seem like they are miles away (even though I know they aren't). Something is just off.
I was g-chatting with one of my friends yesterday and said "Sometimes don't you just want someone to go home to that will give you a great big hug and tell you everything will be ok?" And by "someone" I meant a boy. No, I'm sorry, a man. I have decided I am so over boys. Maybe. I think I want a man that can still be a boy sometimes. I'm picky. Actually I probably don't even know what I want anymore.
Back to the point. I need a hug. A MAN hug. Not a hug from a friend. Or my dog. Or even my mom. But a big strong man hug and maybe a kiss on the top of my head. Actually I need way more than that, but I would settle for a good hug and a "keep your chin up kiddo".
Y'all if I ever do get married (and at this point I almost can't imagine it ever happening) but if I do. I will remember these days. I will remember when there was no one there to give me a hug and tell me it will all be ok and remembering these days will help me be so much more appreciative and never ever take him for granted.
So yes, even though I am a strong, independent woman, I am waving the white flag and admitting it...I do need a man.
Funny side note- lately when I have found myself in situations where a husband would be helpful I will say out loud "See God this is why I need a husband." Well yesterday I was trying to open a pickle jar. I twisted and turned and banged it on the counter and squeeled and finally sat it down frustrated and said "See God this is why I need a husband". Well wouldn't you know...when I picked it back up and twisted the lid, it popped right off. I guess God heard me.
Another side note- I am going to go ahead and predict that tomorrow is going to SUCK. I am getting ready to switch insurance plans. I am probably going to go with a high deductible plan.so I am on a mission to make sure nothing is wrong with me (medically speaking) before Friday. I went to my regular doctor today for a physical. But I had to make an appointment to come back for the blood work. The only appointment they had before Friday is tomorrow at 1:30 pm. Problem is- you have to fast for at least 8 hours before the blood work.
So I am going to have to get up at 5 am tomorrow (did I mention I have insomnia and am definitely NOT a morning person. AT. ALL.) to eat breakfast. Then I can not eat again until after my appointment. It is going to suck. I am already cranky. I'm getting even more cranky just thinking about it.
Ok, I'm going to stop spewing my negativity all over my blog for now. Hopefully the funk will lift soon! Until then I will try to keep the complaining to a minimum. Hope you all are having a better week than me!
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Sunday Snippets on Monday
Life has been busy busy. This Self-Control September thing has kept me busy (more on that later).
I did go to church yesterday, but honestly I didn't take any notes. It was on the last spoke of the Gospel centered life "wheel"- Generosity. JD made a point with a question- "which would put more fear in your heart- hearing that God was not pleased with you or hearing that there was no money in your bank account?" Both would freak me out. But he was trying to make a point that people value money and being rich almost more than anything else in their life. I was talking to a friend later and I said yes, maybe from a guy's perspective money is the ultimate "idol" but I think from a woman's perspective being beautiful or skinny is the ultimate idol. That consumes my thoughts, time and energy more than the pursuit of money and I know that is true for a lot of my friends too. What do you think ladies?
After the service they had more baptisms. I had to take something to the office and on the way back to our cars a girl I volunteer with and I stopped to watch. We were talking about how we couldn't believe there were 300 baptisms last weekend and even more today. I said "That's just crazy" and she said "That's God." That stuck with me throughout the day and still today. When something amazing happens from now on well, that's God.
Also- here is a re-cap from Church at the Ballpark. I love this!
Church at the Ballpark from Josh Sliffe on Vimeo.
Hope you all had a fabulous weekend!
I did go to church yesterday, but honestly I didn't take any notes. It was on the last spoke of the Gospel centered life "wheel"- Generosity. JD made a point with a question- "which would put more fear in your heart- hearing that God was not pleased with you or hearing that there was no money in your bank account?" Both would freak me out. But he was trying to make a point that people value money and being rich almost more than anything else in their life. I was talking to a friend later and I said yes, maybe from a guy's perspective money is the ultimate "idol" but I think from a woman's perspective being beautiful or skinny is the ultimate idol. That consumes my thoughts, time and energy more than the pursuit of money and I know that is true for a lot of my friends too. What do you think ladies?
After the service they had more baptisms. I had to take something to the office and on the way back to our cars a girl I volunteer with and I stopped to watch. We were talking about how we couldn't believe there were 300 baptisms last weekend and even more today. I said "That's just crazy" and she said "That's God." That stuck with me throughout the day and still today. When something amazing happens from now on well, that's God.
Also- here is a re-cap from Church at the Ballpark. I love this!
Church at the Ballpark from Josh Sliffe on Vimeo.
Hope you all had a fabulous weekend!
Friday, September 23, 2011
It's fall y'all!
Today is the first day of fall! I've already updated my house with some fall decor:
I love fall! Football, cooler weather, the pretty leaves, and so many yummy pumpkin recipes! Speaking of pumpkin, I know y'all probably love the pumpkin spice latte like I do, but watch out! A grande with skim milk and no whipped cream still has 260 calories! That's almost double the calories from my normal favorite the Skinny Caramel Machiatto!
Also do you remember how I wanted this rug for my living room?
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Yeah well I ordered it from West Elm. I got the smaller 5x7 size. It was not what I expected. The material was really rough and the white was more of a cream. It also had no kind of backing whatsoever and even with a mat, I could see it not staying in place very well in my living room. The pattern was too bold for the way I had my furniture set up (on a diagonal) as well, so back it goes.
I wish I was going to the ECU game tomorrow. I want to be able to use my newest addition to my Pirate collection.
But at this rate I might not make it to a game at all this year :(
Hope you all have a fabulous fall weekend!!
I love fall! Football, cooler weather, the pretty leaves, and so many yummy pumpkin recipes! Speaking of pumpkin, I know y'all probably love the pumpkin spice latte like I do, but watch out! A grande with skim milk and no whipped cream still has 260 calories! That's almost double the calories from my normal favorite the Skinny Caramel Machiatto!
Also do you remember how I wanted this rug for my living room?
Yeah well I ordered it from West Elm. I got the smaller 5x7 size. It was not what I expected. The material was really rough and the white was more of a cream. It also had no kind of backing whatsoever and even with a mat, I could see it not staying in place very well in my living room. The pattern was too bold for the way I had my furniture set up (on a diagonal) as well, so back it goes.
I wish I was going to the ECU game tomorrow. I want to be able to use my newest addition to my Pirate collection.
But at this rate I might not make it to a game at all this year :(
Hope you all have a fabulous fall weekend!!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Random Thoughts Thursday
-I have dubbed this month "Self- Control September" and so far it's been pretty good. (Expect to see a whole post on this later) But so far no sodas (diet or otherwise) since Labor Day weekend. Although I did have a cherry limeade a few weeks ago and looking back I think it had Sprite in it. But I didn't think about that at the time. I did find a Cherry Limeade sugar free drink mix at Target that is only 5 calories that does not have any soda in it so it is a fabulous substitute!
-I just got hired on full time at my job! For the past year and a half I have been working as a contractor. Virtually everyone starts off as a contractor here and usually it takes a few years before you are converted. It wasn't too bad except for the fact that I only had 5 paid time off days and had to get my own health insurance (which was crazy expensive!!). Now I get 15 vacation days and 12 holidays, health insurance for free, other awesome benefits, and I can use the gym on our campus! And now I am eligible for the performance bonus! I am so super pumped! My first official day is October 3rd. Yay!
- I've hurt my knee. I don't know how I did it, but it is hurting REALLY bad. Last night I iced it and wrapped it in an ACE bandage. This morning I called and made an appointment with my doctor. I just want to make sure it is nothing serious. My health insurance is getting ready to change. I was going to go with the high deductible plan since it is completely paid for (and the company puts $500 a year into your health savings account!). But if this is something serious with my knee I may need to upgrade. The only other time I was on a high deductible plan I ended up breaking my toe and had to pay over $3,000 out of pocket for it!
- I've been doing really well with my 10K training plan until this week. I haven't ran since Monday because of my stupid knee! I really want to though. I might try to tonight. I know...it's a bad decision, but I just want to stay on track with the training plan!
- I love running at night. I have been thinking about doing a half-marathon next year. So I found a the MOST AWESOME half-marathon ever! It is Disney's Wine and Dine Half Marathon. It is run at night through 3 parks at Walt Disney World. And it is at the end of September which is like PERFECT running time. Unfortunately my BFF's little sister is planning her wedding for that weekend next year. I still might do it though unless I can find another good half marathon that is run at night.
Hope you all are having a fabulous week! It's almost Friday! WOO HOO!
-I just got hired on full time at my job! For the past year and a half I have been working as a contractor. Virtually everyone starts off as a contractor here and usually it takes a few years before you are converted. It wasn't too bad except for the fact that I only had 5 paid time off days and had to get my own health insurance (which was crazy expensive!!). Now I get 15 vacation days and 12 holidays, health insurance for free, other awesome benefits, and I can use the gym on our campus! And now I am eligible for the performance bonus! I am so super pumped! My first official day is October 3rd. Yay!
- I've hurt my knee. I don't know how I did it, but it is hurting REALLY bad. Last night I iced it and wrapped it in an ACE bandage. This morning I called and made an appointment with my doctor. I just want to make sure it is nothing serious. My health insurance is getting ready to change. I was going to go with the high deductible plan since it is completely paid for (and the company puts $500 a year into your health savings account!). But if this is something serious with my knee I may need to upgrade. The only other time I was on a high deductible plan I ended up breaking my toe and had to pay over $3,000 out of pocket for it!
- I've been doing really well with my 10K training plan until this week. I haven't ran since Monday because of my stupid knee! I really want to though. I might try to tonight. I know...it's a bad decision, but I just want to stay on track with the training plan!
- I love running at night. I have been thinking about doing a half-marathon next year. So I found a the MOST AWESOME half-marathon ever! It is Disney's Wine and Dine Half Marathon. It is run at night through 3 parks at Walt Disney World. And it is at the end of September which is like PERFECT running time. Unfortunately my BFF's little sister is planning her wedding for that weekend next year. I still might do it though unless I can find another good half marathon that is run at night.
Hope you all are having a fabulous week! It's almost Friday! WOO HOO!
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Sunday Snippets from the Ballpark
Today was the best Sunday! This is where we had church:
That's right, we had church at the baseball park. Ever see the movie Bull Durham? That ballpark became our sanctuary today.
It was packed! I think the official numbers were over 7,000 in attendance.
I had been kind of nervous all week that I would have no one to sit with. Most of my church friends were volunteering for the event, but I really just wanted to go and hear the message and have a Sunday off from volunteering. I was praying, Lord please let some of my friends come! I really don't want to sit by myself. God answered my prayers and I had 4 friends to ride with and sit with today!
There were t-shirts shot into the audience, campus pastors sumo wrestling, and $1 concessions. It was a great worship experience and a great message. The one quote that stood out to me from the sermon was...
"A lot of people are going to miss heaven by 18"- the distance between a belief in the head and a belief in the heart."
After the sermon there was an opportunity for those who had never been baptized to publicly declare their faith in Jesus and be baptized. I was a little uncomfortable at first because I knew one of the friends I brought with me hated things like this...the mass baptism, alter call, whatever you want to call it. Another friend I was sitting with was from my bible study and she had never been baptized as an adult and I told her it would be really cool to do it today. Not many people can say they have been baptized on a baseball field. She wanted to wait though. Well, my other friend decided she wanted to be baptized! I was shocked! And since she was going to do it, my bible study friend decided to go ahead and do it too! Praise God! I was crying and I wasn't even the one being baptized! Both of them like me had been baptized as infants, but this was their public deceleration of their faith in Christ. It was truly incredible to get to experience that with them!
It made me think back to my own baptism and how that was the first time I really did something I absolutely did not want to do, but I knew that God wanted me to do. That one act led to such a deeper trust and faith in Him and I never, ever doubted where I stood with Him again. Since then I have had the trust and faith in Him to let Him take the lead on so many other areas of my life. I am so incredibly happy for my friends to have that too!
It also reminded me of this quote:
“As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.”
I had this quote written on my whiteboard for weeks at work. See I still struggle with sharing my faith. For years I thought this is something so personal. It's just between me and God. I get uncomfortable talking about it, I still hate praying out loud, but I have been trying to change that. There is no reason you should have to hide it for fear of how you will look or if you are going to offend someone.
That was never more evident to me than it was today. If my one friend would not have had the courage to stand up and say I want to do this, let her light shine, then the other wouldn't have either. She unconsciously gave her permission to let her light shine too! It was truly God at work!
So today...Go! Let your light shine!!
That's right, we had church at the baseball park. Ever see the movie Bull Durham? That ballpark became our sanctuary today.
It was packed! I think the official numbers were over 7,000 in attendance.
I had been kind of nervous all week that I would have no one to sit with. Most of my church friends were volunteering for the event, but I really just wanted to go and hear the message and have a Sunday off from volunteering. I was praying, Lord please let some of my friends come! I really don't want to sit by myself. God answered my prayers and I had 4 friends to ride with and sit with today!
There were t-shirts shot into the audience, campus pastors sumo wrestling, and $1 concessions. It was a great worship experience and a great message. The one quote that stood out to me from the sermon was...
"A lot of people are going to miss heaven by 18"- the distance between a belief in the head and a belief in the heart."
After the sermon there was an opportunity for those who had never been baptized to publicly declare their faith in Jesus and be baptized. I was a little uncomfortable at first because I knew one of the friends I brought with me hated things like this...the mass baptism, alter call, whatever you want to call it. Another friend I was sitting with was from my bible study and she had never been baptized as an adult and I told her it would be really cool to do it today. Not many people can say they have been baptized on a baseball field. She wanted to wait though. Well, my other friend decided she wanted to be baptized! I was shocked! And since she was going to do it, my bible study friend decided to go ahead and do it too! Praise God! I was crying and I wasn't even the one being baptized! Both of them like me had been baptized as infants, but this was their public deceleration of their faith in Christ. It was truly incredible to get to experience that with them!
It made me think back to my own baptism and how that was the first time I really did something I absolutely did not want to do, but I knew that God wanted me to do. That one act led to such a deeper trust and faith in Him and I never, ever doubted where I stood with Him again. Since then I have had the trust and faith in Him to let Him take the lead on so many other areas of my life. I am so incredibly happy for my friends to have that too!
It also reminded me of this quote:
“As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.”
I had this quote written on my whiteboard for weeks at work. See I still struggle with sharing my faith. For years I thought this is something so personal. It's just between me and God. I get uncomfortable talking about it, I still hate praying out loud, but I have been trying to change that. There is no reason you should have to hide it for fear of how you will look or if you are going to offend someone.
That was never more evident to me than it was today. If my one friend would not have had the courage to stand up and say I want to do this, let her light shine, then the other wouldn't have either. She unconsciously gave her permission to let her light shine too! It was truly God at work!
So today...Go! Let your light shine!!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Act Fast!
One of my most favorite bloggers Kristen @ All in My Twenties just hit 1000 followers! How does that even freaking happen?!? I mean I can't believe I even have 50 people find my blog, let alone 300, and forget 1,000! It just blows my mind!
Anyway, in honor of this she is hosting a giveaway, but you only have 24 hours to enter. She has some pretty amazing prizes and you even get to pick which one you like best! (I told you she's fabulous!)
Go HERE to enter!
I also love her because she introduced me to the honey badger! I LOVE this!
A friend of mine said the new optimal level of drunkeness is "honey badger drunk". It's where you are just so drunk you don't give a sh*t, but not blackout drunk. Still makes me crack up!
Anyway, in honor of this she is hosting a giveaway, but you only have 24 hours to enter. She has some pretty amazing prizes and you even get to pick which one you like best! (I told you she's fabulous!)
Go HERE to enter!
I also love her because she introduced me to the honey badger! I LOVE this!
A friend of mine said the new optimal level of drunkeness is "honey badger drunk". It's where you are just so drunk you don't give a sh*t, but not blackout drunk. Still makes me crack up!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Oh How Pinteresting Wednesday!
I am linking up with The Vintage Apple again for Oh, How Pinteresting Wednesday!
Please follow me on Pinterest so I can follow you and see all the pretty things you are loving!
Follow Me!! - ncsuz on Pinterest
Right now my mom is in Portland, OR. She has 3 ladies she has been friends with since elementary school (I think that is amazing!). They try to get together every year now, so she is spending time with them this week. But that means I don't get to have my nightly chats with her and I miss her! Especially today because I have some big news to share with her! So the theme for today's pinboard is parenting (and no my big news is not that I am pregnant!). These are just a few pins and ideas I love for if I ever become a parent!
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Please follow me on Pinterest so I can follow you and see all the pretty things you are loving!
Follow Me!! - ncsuz on Pinterest
Right now my mom is in Portland, OR. She has 3 ladies she has been friends with since elementary school (I think that is amazing!). They try to get together every year now, so she is spending time with them this week. But that means I don't get to have my nightly chats with her and I miss her! Especially today because I have some big news to share with her! So the theme for today's pinboard is parenting (and no my big news is not that I am pregnant!). These are just a few pins and ideas I love for if I ever become a parent!
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