Showing posts with label #14- mission trip. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #14- mission trip. Show all posts

Friday, August 29, 2014

Five on Friday

Since I missed 10 on Tuesday and I'm still busy and kind of all over the place we're doing this bullet style today:

1. I watched two documentaries last weekend - Miss Representation and It's a Girl.  Both were excellent and opened my eyes to how alive and well sexism still is.  I could do a whole post on my thoughts about these...you should for sure watch them! If you do, message me because I'd love to discuss!



2. This week I sent an email to my coworkers letting them know about my Kenya trip and inviting them to donate to my Freedom Campaign.  I really did not want to send this email.  I thought it might be inappropriate for work, I hate asking for money, and I didn't want anyone to be annoyed with me.  But I felt God pushing me to.  Well guess what?  People donated!  Like $100 each!  I was so surprised, overwhelmed and encouraged!  You can learn more about my trip and donate here: www.stayclassy.com/ncsuz

3. I got a new job!  I am still with Lenovo, but I am moving to the marketing department for the channel team.  It was a tough decision, but I think this is a good opportunity.  I have so many mixed emotions about it though- sad, excited, nervous, anxious, relieved, stressed!  Any tips for getting through those first few weeks at a new job?

4. I'm not sure if we are just a test market for this or not...but have you tried the frosted lemonade at Chic-fil-a?!  OMG it is amazing!  I saw the sign for it throughout the summer but didn't give it a try until last night and wow! I've been missing out!  I wish we were also a test market for the new breakfast items...chicken and waffles?  yes please!

5. I'm going to Harry Potter world in a few weeks!  It was very last minute.  I had an airline credit I had to use before the end of October and luckily one of my friends was able to go and found us an awesome deal on a hotel.  I can't wait!

Hope you guys have a fabulous long weekend!!

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Ten on Tuesday

My brain is fried.  I meant to post this earlier, but you know how it goes.  Just wanted to share some random thoughts so I can get back into the habit of blogging regularly.  Here we go...

1. I don't understand this ALS ice bucket challenge thing.  In the videos people say "You have 24 hours to accept this challenge or donate $100 to ALS."  I mean I guess it is a good way for people who can't donate to spread the word, but I feel like it has turned into this "look at me dump water on my head" thing.  It is bothering me, but it's good that it's raised so much awareness and money.

2. I have to get more shots for my Kenya trip tomorrow.  Let me tell you this whole vaccination thing has made me thankful for electronic medical records.  I have no record of my shots except for the past 3 years and trying to get past medical information is an act of congress.  Also I hate needles.  I got the Typhoid and Yellow Fever shots last week so at least I know I can just suck it up and get through it but I'm so ready for all these shots to be over.  Also these shots ain't cheap!  It was over $300 for the 2 I got last week!

3. I watched a TED talk yesterday and this conception to birth video blew my mind.  I mean the complexity of creating a human is amazing.  God is an amazing engineer!



4. Reality TV has gotten me through the summer.  Big Brother. Bachelorette and Bachelor in Paradise.  Dance Moms.  Raising Asia.  It's my guilty pleasure.

5.   I got a Jawbone UP a few weeks ago and I am obsessed with it.  Best purchase I have made in a while.  I got the old version which was only $79!  Anybody else have an UP?

6.  One of the girls in my bible study went on this Kenya trip back in June and showed me pictures from the trip.  One of the things I was most worried about was the bathroom situation.  It is literally a shack with a hole in the ground.  Literally a hole. in the ground. This is probably TMI but...I was even contemplating taking Imodium so I wouldn't have to go #2 while we are in the village during the day and almost threw a party when according to my period tracker I wasn't supposed to start until the day we come home when I will at least have access to airport bathrooms.  Then I saw this video.  And I felt really guilty about being worried about myself for 10 days when these girls have to worry about it all the time.



7. I read a great blog post yesterday.  The title was "God I am worn out" and all I could think was Amen!  In it she talks about how a tree has to shed it's leaves to prepare for winter and if it doesn't the branches become overwhelmed and break.  She talks about how you have to say no to some things so that you can say yes to others.  This is a lesson I need to learn ASAP!

"...That's what happens when a snow comes early. The trees weren't designed to face snow before releasing their leaves. They weren't made to carry more than they should. And neither are we.
I know the weight of carrying more than I should. And usually it's because I've refused to release something before taking on something else. If I want to choose a Best Yes, it's crucial I make room for it first.

Otherwise, a Best Yes can quickly become a stressed yes. And a stressed yes is like snow on a tree that refuses to release its leaves. It causes cracks and breaks at our core.

If we refuse to release before we add, we will get overloaded."

- See more at: http://proverbs31.org/devotions/devo/god-im-worn-out/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+p31encouragement+%28P31+Encouragement+for+Today%29#sthash.kNFxsU6T.dpuf

8.  Speaking of stressed, I also read this article about how the age women are happiest at is 25 and the age they are most stressed at is 34.  I just had my 34th birthday. Great.

9. Following God is sometimes like going to the gym for me.  I dread it.  I whine about what He asks me to do (currently fundraising for Kenya is at the top of my list).  But I am always blown away by what He does when I follow Him and feel so good afterwards saying "That was totally worth it."  But getting there is definitely a struggle and most of the time not very pretty.  By the way if you'd like to donate, please! help me!  because I SUCK at fundraising.  You can donate at www.stayclassy.com/ncsuz

10. I'm going to bed.  It's almost midnight.  This night owl stuff has to stop.  If you have any tips for getting to bed early and falling asleep (that's my main issue) please let me know!

Hope you all are having a fabulous week and since it's pretty much Wednesday now, Happy Hump Day!

this still cracks me up every time...



Monday, October 22, 2012

Prayer Request

I believe in the power of prayer.  I believe because I have seen it work many times.  Two years ago I asked you guys to pray for Bailey's safe return home and it worked!  (Read a more on that story here)  I never thought I could raise over $3,000 for a mission trip when I was at my lowest financial point ever, but I did. When I got laid off a few years ago, I never thought I would recover financially or find a job I love, but I did.  All of those were only accomplished through the grace of God and prayer!

This isn't nearly as urgent but it's something that needs to happen but I need a little help.  There is someone I need to have a difficult conversation with.  Please pray that God will create an opportunity for this conversation to happen and that I will have courage and the words to say.

I know that is very vague, but I promise I will give you more details eventually.

Thanks for your support and for being such loyal readers/friends!  I know I have been slacking in the posts lately.  It's hard to write when your mind is consumed.  But I promise to get back on the regular blogging bandwagon soon!

Monday, April 11, 2011

Sunday Snippets on Monday

I’m not going to post my sermon notes. It was all about the “hiddenness” of God…how He doesn’t just come down from the sky and tell us “here is the truth and what I want you to do”. If you want to listen to or read the whole sermon, go here.

Really the best line from the sermon this week for me was “Until you’re surrendered, God’s not showing you anything.” 

This is still the hardest thing for me. I like to be in control of my life. But I did want to know where God was at one point in my life. I started to feel like maybe I couldn’t do it on my own. So I went looking for God. I researched other religions because I didn’t want to just believe something because it was all I knew. But after the research I still believed in Jesus. I started trying to find a church. I listened to the sermons and I prayed (not out loud) but I still didn’t really feel full or different that much.

Then I started surrendering and doing things I REALLY didn’t want to do like getting dunked in a tank of water or writing a check for more than $20 to drop in the offering bucket. I wanted to know God and I was finally willing to do things outside my comfort zone because it wasn’t for me this time, it was for Him. I was admitting “Maybe I don’t know it all”, let me try doing it YOUR way.

I stuck it out in a Bible study that made me feel SUPER uncomfortable. I stuck it out volunteering even though I HATED it at one point. I signed up for a mission trip that cost over $3,000 when I couldn’t even afford cable. And all of these things have more than triple paid off. I LOVE my b-study girls! Volunteering and the mission trip both helped the church finally start to feel small. I actually knew people…I was connected…it started feeling like a family (believe me it was at times painful getting to this point).

(Yes, you don’t “earn” your salvation by what you do, but what you do does reflect what’s in your heart. How would everyone truly know what is in your heart without looking at what you do? It’s the easiest way I can illustrate what’s in my heart to you.)

Most importantly though I was finally looking for God because I truly wanted to know HIM and not just what he could do for ME. He fills me with a love and peace I could never find before. It isn’t easy, and I still grip things tightly, and I still ask for things selfishly when I pray sometimes but knowing God and seeing Him everywhere now has been totally worth it.

He still doesn’t make it easy to get to know Him. Have you ever really sat down and read the Bible? Not just the fun parts, but the more boring obscure parts? It can be confusing as crap. I have so many questions every Tuesday for my small group. I want to know what they think a passage means or why it would be that way, or what happened to the dinosaurs…seriously I ask so many questions. And I know we will never have the answers to them all, but I still seek Him. I still read the Bible to find out what I can. That really is the only way to get to know God. Otherwise you are probably just making God in your image instead of the other way around…projecting your feelings, experiences or beliefs into His character and making Him be like you…essentially making yourself god. Only when you give that up…surrender yourself and make Him Lord of your life everyday, truly seek Him to know Him, that’s when He reveals Himself to you.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

One Word: Faith


I’ve joined Reverb 10, an annual event and online initiative to reflect on your year and manifest what’s next. The end of the year is an opportunity to reflect on what's happened, and to send out reverberations for the year ahead.  Each day, we get a new prompt and post a blog sharing what the prompt means to us.  You should join in too!




December 1 One Word.
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
(Author: Gwen Bell)

Faith.

“To take the first step in faith, you don’t have to see the whole staircase: just take the first step.” 
-Martin Luther King Jr.

My life now is very different from when I started this year.   I have a different job.  I have traveled to a different country.  The person I used to talk to everyday, I no longer speak to.  I was stressed and broke and now I am stressed (but in a good way) and not so broke.  I probably couldn’t run a mile or lift more than 20 lbs.  But now I am stronger from weekly weight lifting and am running 3.1 miles this Saturday.  It has been quite a year.

But the most defining theme for me this year has been faith.  I was in no position financially to sign up for a mission trip last January, but I had faith that God would provide a way and He did!  (A lot of it thanks to you readers!  I am still so shocked and humbled by the generosity, love, and faith you guys have!).  And I got to experience God half a world away, saw a different culture and country, overcame my fear of the middle seat and long distance flying, got to get to know some really awesome kids, broke down some of my missionary and middle east stereotypes, and bonded with some awesome members of my church.

Last year I was so broke.  It was worse than paycheck to paycheck kind of broke.  It was to the point of “I’ve cut almost everything that is not an absolute need from my life” kind of broke.  I was so stressed and depressed about it.  I loved my job, but it just did not pay enough to cover the bills.  I didn’t want to leave, but I knew something had to change.  Now I have a job I really, really like.  It is hard for me to admit when I am in love, but I think I might love this job.  Monday we had free massages and smoothies at work!  How cool is that?!  It is stressful and a lot of work, but it is also fun, challenging, and satisfying.  And it literally dropped out of the sky.  I had not applied to this job.  I randomly got a call about it on a Tuesday and less than a week later I had the job!  From being miserable at a job, to being laid off, to being broke, to being happy…it’s been quite a journey over the last 2 years and the whole time I had to have faith that I was right where God wanted me to be.  And now He has put me here and I love it!

But it all hasn’t been good.  The one area my faith has really been tested is in the romance department.  So much so that I have given up on dating for now.  I have been so disappointed in this department.  I used to believe so much in true love and that I would find my prince charming.  But the experiences I have had with guys over the last 12 years have beaten all the hope out of me.  I want it to come back.  I want to believe that God, knowing how important this is to me, would not abandon me in this area, but right now I don’t.  I hope it comes back.  I hope I believe in love again.  I hope I can trust again.  I hope I can have faith that God hears my prayers for a husband and family again.  But it is going to take some time.

The word that I hope encompasses 2011 for me is Unexpected.  I need some surprises.  I need to experience some out-of-the-ordinary events to remind me there are things I don’t know yet about this world and life.

What would be your word for 2010?

Thursday, July 29, 2010

My first mission trip experience!

I have been so exhausted this week! I'm usually an insomniac, but I'm lucky to make it past 9pm on most nights this week.

Not only was Dubai my first trip abroad, but it was also my first mission trip!

We got to Dubai late on Friday night. Saturday we were able to fit in some touristy stuff (more on that tomorrow) before getting ready to set up for the conference on Sunday.

Sunday morning we were able to worship as a team together before everyone started arriving. A few of the missionary families were already there and they got to share with our team a little bit about the folks who would be joining us in a few short hours. We got to learn more about the dangerous environments they serve in, the hardships they have faced over the last few years, and more about what their lives are like.

After that our campus worship leader lead us in two of my most favorite songs. I could feel God in that room. We were stuck in the basement of this hotel in a city thousands of miles from home, in a country very different and much less free than my own. I was overcome with emotion as I sang the words to the songs. Tears were streaming down my face and I dared not look around or sniffle because you know how I feel about crying in public. It was bad enough that the guitar player and worship leader could see me! (I later confessed this to one of the other girls on the trip and she was like "me too!")

After that we got a great teaching from one of our elders on one of my favorite topics about losing your life for Christ. Luke 17:33- "Whoever tries to keep his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it." I memorized a verse similar to that earlier this year. It basically means if you are willing to lose your life for Christ and give up your wants and needs to follow Him, you will find Him and the life only He can give you!

Anyway, he told the story of Lot's wife. If you do not know the story, basically Lot lived in a town called Sodom. God was going to destroy the town because of all the evil things the people were doing there. Two angels came and told Lot to take his family and flee the city immediately because God was going to destroy it. Lot's daughters were both engaged to be married, so you know a wedding was in the works. Imagine being told a week before the wedding to pack up in the middle of the night and flee the city you have planned your daughter's weddings in because it is about to be destroyed. The angels warned Lot's family to not look back. On the way out of the city, Lot's wife looked back at the city burning and was turned into a pillar of salt. This story is meant to reinforce how important it is to follow God's call and not cling to your comfy life. Follow God and don't look back. It was a good message to hear right before meeting all these people who had done just that with their lives.
My 2nd suitcase was donated
so they could carry back
supplies with them

We spent the rest of the day unpacking supplies we had brought over and setting up our rooms. Let me tell you, turning a bland hotel room into a classroom for preschoolers is not easy. The hotel staff was great though. They took out furniture and brought additional tables and chairs as we requested them. We did the best we could and luckily it worked out pretty well throughout the week!

The medical team set up their supplies and went shopping for anything they couldn't bring over. The music team and teachers set up the conference room to get ready for a week of worship and teaching. We put gift bags in each of the missionaries rooms and after we were finished hung out in the lobby so we could welcome them when they arrived. It was a busy afternoon!

Every day we had preschool with the kids. We had them for about 4 hours every morning and some of the nights so the parents could have teaching time, worship time, and game night or date night. We taught them songs, did a lesson, played games, did crafts, snacks, etc. One day we even took them to the pool! Everyday I could not get the songs out of my head. They each had hand motions that went with them and the kids were supposed to perform them for their parents at the end of the week, so we sang them about 50 times a day. "God loves you and me" and "My God is so big, so strong and so mighty" were on constant repeat in my head and still are stuck in there almost a week later!

Kids are exhausting! I have a new found respect for parents because kids really wear you out! They constantly have to be doing something, have short attention spans, and so much energy! They were all so sweet and cute though. I was with the 3-4 year olds. We had 2 girls and 3 boys. The boys could get a little rowdy and the girls seemed to be a calming influence on the class. This just re-enforced my want to have 2 little girls someday. I loved them all though. They each had their own little personalities and cuteness factors. Oh I miss them already!

The lesson time was the hardest part. We had to bring the 2 year olds in for it and there was always someone crying, all of them were squirming and itching to get up, siblings were catching up with each other like they hadn't seen each other in years, half the kids weren't paying attention and no one seemed to know what was going on. It was so hard! I don't know how teachers do it!

They did so good with their song during skit night on Friday though! Pure cuteness on display for everyone!

The parents were so appreciative of the childcare offered- especially date night since most of them hadn't had a kid free night in a year!

Most nights we also got to hang out and have more conversations about their work over dinner, cab rides, or late night card games. I loved getting to know all of them and hearing what their lives are like. Before this trip I would have never considered giving up everything here and moving overseas to be a missionary, but now I would. They aren't those people who blindly pass out Bibles or just do good works and not give any glory to God. They have regular jobs over there (most of them in some kind of "helping" capacity) and they just live their lives in an Christian way and build relationships that naturally lead to sharing the Gospel with people who have never heard it. They aren't those "Crazy Christians" I had in my head when I thought of "Evangelists" and the like.

The last two days were sad. I didn't want it to end. The last night we had skits and songs from the kids and students. The high schoolers did this one skit at the end that had me in tears again. I found a similar one on the Internet and theirs was about the same, but for some reason so much better:


Saturday I tried to soak up all the time I could with the preschoolers during class so I would never forget them. I gave them all big hugs and told them I would miss them so so much!

It was like living in an alternate universe last week. I miss my team already. I miss the kids. I wish I could have had more time with the missionaries to hear all their stories. My first mission trip was a success and it definitely won't be my last.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

International Traveler- Dubai!

Dubai was amazing!  I am so fascinated by the UAE now.  The people were so pretty and mysterious and the culture and sights and sounds were so interesting.  My first trip abroad has left me wanting more!

The long flight wasn't nearly as bad as I was expecting.  We had about an hour or so hop over to Washington DC and then it was about 14 hours or so to Dubai from there. I was able to fall asleep for about 3-4 hours with the help of my Ambien.  I also watched 2 movies, so it really didn't seem like much downtime.

I was even in the middle seat in the middle row!  There were 2 seats, an aisle, 5 seats, another aisle and then 2 more seats.  The plane was huge and packed!  I was in the very middle seat of that middle row so I had to ask 2 people to move every time I got up.  (I only got up once because of this!)  I was freaking out about being trapped in the middle at first but it really wasn't that bad.  I think it was because everyone on my row was a part of my team and not strangers.

Airplane food sucks though.  I didn't really like anything we got, but I ate some of it anyway because I was starving.  We were served a meal when we first got on the plane (pasta) and one a few hours before we landed (I can't remember what that one was but it sucked too.)

First off Dubai was hot.  Really hot.  It felt like walking in to an oven every time you opened a door to go outside.  And it was NOT a dry heat.  It was VERY humid.  My sunglasses and camera lens practically stayed foggy when we were outside.

I didn't exchange any money when we got there.  Instead I just pulled some out of the ATM with my debit card.  I had called both my banks to let them know I was going to be over there so they wouldn't freeze my account.  They charge about a 3% international fee every time you use your card, but I still think it was better than exchanging money.  Their money is called Dirhams (kind of pronounced like Durham- a city right beside Raleigh which I thought was ironic).  One thing I loved was that you mostly used paper.  There was no tax and everything was rounded up.  Sometimes you would get change (called Phils) but not often.  The exchange rate was about 3.67 Dirhams to every dollar.  The cost for things was about the same as the US for the most part, except some stores you could find things really cheap.  Designer stores seemed to be cheaper than US prices.

Dubai was so different but really similar to the US at the same time.  There are so many different cultures there.  Almost everyone we talked to wasn't from there originally.  Most were from Pakistan, Afghanistan, Turkey, Yemen, Lebanon, or India.  But we did not talk to anyone in the traditional Arab dress (white robes/headdress for the men, all black for the women).  They don't talk, smile, or even really look at you.  But they look so elegant and mysterious!  I was fascinated by them!

There were some Europeans and Japanese/Chinese vacation, but we didn't see any other Americans really.  We definitely stood out.  One night when we all went out to dinner, the whole restaurant staff took a picture with us because we were the most Americans they had ever seen.

Oh and I am not sure who it is, but some people group over there does not believe in deodorant.  I would catch whiffs of the worst body odor ever at random times.  Also the Russian men in speedos at our hotel were pretty gross.  And in every public bathroom there were these spray faucets beside the toilets and drains in the floor and most of the time the floor was wet.  I don't know if they were taking showers in there or what but it was pretty gross.

Overall though the city was really clean and modern, but everything was concrete high rise buildings and roads.  No green.  A few patches of sand for parking lots here and there.  Everything was really opulent and you could tell A LOT of money was put in to that city!

For transportation we took the hotel shuttle bus a few times.  They packed us in there.  They even had these pop down seats that folded down in the middle of the aisle and every single seat was filled.  We also took a lot of taxis.  The taxis scared the crap out of me.  They drive really fast and kind of crazy, but you start to get used to it.  The roads have like no traffic lights.  There were a few, but mostly every intersection was just a round-about you had to merge on to.  We also took the metro a few times.  It was the nicest, cleanest metro I had ever seen!

We stayed at a resort right on the Persian Gulf in the next city over (Sharjah) which was really pretty but the water was so hot, I did not swim in it.  It was like the temperature of a jacuzzi and not refreshing at all.  I mostly stayed in the pool if we were outside (the water was cooled).  It was too hot and humid to be outside though. You would be sweating within 5 minutes even at nighttime.


Internet in our hotel sucked.  Think back to dial up speed about 15 years ago.  We each paid $50 per room for Wifi that hardly ever worked.  I think I was able to send about 5 emails last week in total and they were all really short!  I'm not sure if this was just something with our hotel or all over Dubai.


The most interesting part of the UAE was the people though.  They were so beautiful and mysterious.  The men all looked like kings with their robes and headdresses and the women looked like mysterious queens hiding beneath their black robes called abayas. ( Although someone said they looked like dementors.)  Some would show just their eyes and have the most beautiful eye make-up on.  Some would show their whole face.  Some would cover their entire face and even wear their glasses on the outside of their scarf and black gloves so you could not see any part of them.  Some had plain robes.  Some had beautiful bling on their robes.  Most of them had really nice shoes and designer bags and sunglasses.  I said that would the perfect outfit for me because I love splurging on handbags but not so much on clothes!

I often wondered when I saw one man with more than one woman.  Were those all his wives, or were those daughters?  Also sometimes you would see an Asian woman walking behind a couple with the kids, and someone said they were basically like the family's slave.

I wondered what these people were like in their homes.  What did the women wear?  Did they laugh and talk?  What did their home look like?  Did the men wear their headdress even at home?

You can also tell they are concerned with status.  The men wore really nice sunglasses and I already told you about the women.  They also drive really fancy cars.  We saw a lot of luxury cars there.  Someone also told me their license plates show status.  Regular people have 5 numbers and the fewer numbers you have, the closer in relation to the Sheik you are.


I seriously can not expressed how fascinated I am by this place!  I ordered a book yesterday to learn more about the mysterious rich city:


I also brought back a little bit of their culture with me in the many headscarves I bought. Here is my roommate from the trip modeling one of hers at one of the many stores we went to at the Blue Souk:


And my henna:

This has spurred more random conversations with strangers than I ever thought!  It is already starting to fade after just a week, but they said it could last up to 2-3 weeks!
A lady came to the hotel and did it for us one day.  She did the whole thing freehand!  It is this paste stuff she squeezes out of a tube kind of like a cake icing bag with a pointy tip on the end.  You leave the paste on until it dries and starts to flake off (I left mine on for about an hour or 2 because supposedly the longer you leave it on, the longer it lasts.)  Then it is bright orange in color and darkens to a brown color.  The color and how long it lasts depends on your skin.  I noticed a lot of the women in abayas had henna on their hands there.  One even told my roommate in a mall to put Vaseline on hers (the one and only time one of them talked to any of us!).

The security on the way back in to the States was tight!  They scan your bags before you even get to the gate to check them.  Then they check your passport and ask you questions about your trip and your bags before they let you check in.  Then they check your passport again and stamp it before you can go to the gate.  Then at the gate they checked our passports again, pulled me into a room and patted my down completely- I mean everywhere!  Opened up all my carry on items and went through all my stuff by hand and then finally let me on the plane.  Then when we got to DC we had to go through customs which took forever!  They check your passport then you have to get your bags and re-check them and then go through the scanner for your carry on.  It was much different than flying just in the US.

The food on our flight sucked again.  We had a vegetarian rice dish when we got on and then a breakfast that consisted of runny eggs, soggy potato wedges, and jalapeno poppers (for breakfast!?)  Our flight landed in the US a little after 6 am and luckily I was able to get Starbucks after we made it through customs and security before the short flight back to Raleigh.

I was glad to get home and Cam & Bailey were so excited to see me!  I missed them so much!  I managed to stay up all day Sunday until about 8:30pm.  But I have been exhausted ever since then and have fallen asleep early every night!

I know this was long, but I have so much more to tell you!  I want to tell you about how I saw God working on this trip and about all my kids in our preschool class!  They were so cute!  I also want to tell you about all the touristy things we did there!  So stay tuned for more later this week!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

I'll Pray for You

Sorry I haven't written in a while.  Things have been super busy this week!  I think it is going to just be crazy maddness from here on out until I get back from Dubai.

That reminds me again- those of you who donated or helped me raise funds- THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I couldn't have gotten here without you!!  I can not believe it is happening.  I can not wait to go and come back and share my experience with all of you!!  You guys are angels and I can only hope to be as generous as you were when someone needs me!

Which brings me to praying...as a Christian I am challenged to pray for people everyday.  Pray for a friend whose mother just found out the cancer is back.  Pray for a friend who is about to have her first baby.  Pray for a family whose little girl is in the hospital.  Pray for a friend who is about to have surgery.  Pray for a friend who is going after a new job.  Pray for a friend who is trying to sell her condo, find a new job and move.  Pray for a co-worker who was just in a car accident.

Those types of prayers aren't that hard, you just have to remember them all.  The kind of prayers that are hard are the ones you pray for the people you don't like.  People who have hurt you or done you wrong.  Mean people.  Your enemies.  Mostly I pray for God to give me a forgiving spirit towards them and to be able to show them love even if they are undeserving just like God showed me love when I was undeserving.

But last night I heard a song on the radio that had me cracking up! Deep down this is the type of prayer I would rather pray for those meanies...because deep down I'm mean too!  Only God can help me love my enemies because trust me it ain't easy!

Pray for You- Jaron and The Long Road to Love



I haven't been to church since I don't remember when
Things were going great til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can't go hatin' others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do his job, you just pray for them



I pray your brakes go out runnin' down a hill
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flyin' high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, honey, I pray for you

I'm really glad I found my way to church
Cause I'm already feelin' better and I thank God for the words
Yeah, I'm gonna take the high road and do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messin' up, and I'll keep prayin' for you

I pray your tire goes out at 110
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend
And wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin' down a hill
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flyin' high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far
In your house or in your car
Wherever you are, honey, I pray for you
I pray for you

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Swimsuit Shopping

One of the things we are doing in Dubai is going to a water park.  Is this a sign God?  Seriously, I put on my list to not feel self-conscious at a water park and now you are pretty much forcing me to go to one?

There are 2 ways to go about not feeling self conscious at a water park:

1. Have a banging body and know it
2. Be ok with your body and not worry about what other people are thinking of you

Neither one of these are easy unless you are blessed with wonderful genetics.  I am working on getting my body back in shape, but it is not going to be where I want it to be by July.  Plus even if it was, there is that nasty little thing called cellulite.  Even skinny girls and celebrities have it.  And it is dang hard to hide it in a swimsuit.

The second option is just as hard because who doesn't care what people think.  Everyone does.  And if you say that you don't, well, good for you, but I am willing to bet just about everyone cares what people think of them at least some of the time.  And for girls being ok with your body is almost impossible.  We have body issues.  No matter what shape or size you are, every girl has probably at one point or another had issues with their body.  Maybe it is from the media...maybe it is from commercials and magazines and TVs and movies that feature skinny women 24/7 or maybe it is from a mean comment or embarrassment as a child.  Kids can be mean and if someone said something hurtful to you or embarrassed you as a child it is likely to stick with you for a long time.  I still remember a mean girl on the playground calling me chubby in 3rd grade.  And um, yeah I was 8 and not fat at all, but I still remember that comment and embarrassment.

Also a water park is different than laying out at the beach or pool.  At a beach or pool you are lounging around most of the time and when you do get up to go get in the water, you can quickly get from your chair to under the water without much notice from others.  But at a water park, you are constantly walking around and climbing stairs and not to mention the possible wardrobe malfunctions that can occur on the slides.

Now I am adding on top of that being in a different country- a conservative Muslim country.  The rules are we have to wear a one piece.  I have not worn a one piece since I was 14.  I don't even own one.  For some reason I feel like one piece suits accentuate my biggest physical flaw- my legs.  I am short.  5'1"- if that.  I have short stubby legs that I have hated since middle school.  When I wear a one piece I feel like all the attention is on my legs for some reason.  And I hate it.

So now I am one the hunt for a one piece swimsuit.  Here are some options I have come across:


I like this one because the color blocking seems to break up the fabric and divert the eye upward.
This one is borderline mom skirt style, but for some reason I like it.
It's a pattern and it's pink and it's cheap.

I like that it is solid black, but throws in some polka dots and I like the ties on the sides.

These next 3 I like because they look like Tankinis but they are actually one piece suits so they fit in the rules:
This one is the cheapest option.  Like by far!


I'm drawn to browns and paisley for some reason.
I think this one is my favorite, but it is more than I was wanting to spend.

Like I said we are going to be in a Muslim country and from what I heard, some women go dressed fully clothed.  I mean theses are the same women you see covered from head to toe in all black.  How they do that in 100+ degree weather I have no clue.  Apparently the Burkini is also very popular over there:
If someone will buy me one, I might just rock it over there.  But I don't know how I would not feel self-conscious dressed in this, but for totally different reasons!

So tell me, which suit do you like best?  Any suggestions on where to look for more one piece options?

Friday, April 30, 2010

Last Day for Mission Trip Donation & Update

First- Thank you so much for all you kind comments, emails, and words of encouragement! It really helped me get through this! I am so amazed and blessed by all of you!

You may have noticed I removed the button to donate to my mission trip from my sidebar. I deleted it because I thought that was one of the ways my Mr. or Miss Mean Commenter had got my real name (in the case that they didn't know me in real life). I'm telling you, this whole experience has really freaked me out and I tried to erase every connection of my real name to my blog.

But that doesn't mean that I am not still trying to raise money. TODAY is the last day to donate online though. My final amount is due May 23rd and Firstgiving.com only issues checks to the church once a month, so that means any online donations have to be made TODAY in order to make it there by the deadline.

I am about $800 away from my goal. Today is your last chance if you were planning to donate online. Click HERE to go to the donation page.

I got my assignment for the trip on Sunday and I am going to be working with the PRE-SCHOOLERS! (Ages 3-5) I was secretly hoping for this age group because they are out of diapers, but still young enough to be really sweet and fun!

As far as everything else goes, I'm not giving up on this blog. I love writing and never really knew how much until I started this blog. No one is going to take that away from me. In fact I think I have forgiven this person. It doesn't bother me nearly as much and I have started to realize this action had less to do with me and more to do with them and their insecurities, anger, fear or whatever they are going through.

The past few weeks have been tough. But there have been high points too! I wanted to share one with you. My new title is "Promotional Content Writer". I didn't know this until Tuesday. For some reason this made me so happy. I am a writer. I am a professional writer. Granted it is promotional content, but I am getting paid to write. It was like discovering a dream I never knew I had! I still can't stop smiling about it!

I promise to write more later, just bear with me for a few days while I'm still recovering from all this craziness!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Adventures of a Yard Sale

The yard sale is finally OVER! This was the first time I had ever done a yard sale, and let me tell you, it is a lot of work! Sorting through everything and organizing it into bins and pricing everything and finding tables and baskets, going to pick up donations, hauling all this crap by yourself, making sure you have money to make change, storing all this stuff in your house for weeks...I about went crazy. But it was a success...I made about $250 for my mission trip!

Friday was the craziest of all days. I had a lot of stuff and not enough bins or tables, so I sent out a message on Facebook. A girl who used to work in my office had one and I found one at work to borrow. I had also borrowed an old dining room table from witty guy (which he also let me sell!). I borrowed laundry baskets from friends. It was a lot of running around. I had to make signs for everything. I had to go to the bank to get change. I had to go pick up some last minute donations from friends. I spent the whole night sorting through everything and pricing. I didn't go to bed until 1:30 am. Here was my dining room the night before (and there was even more stacked up in my living room!)






I got up at 6 and the yard sale started at 7am. My friend Kristin came over to help. I do not know what I would have done without her!! We hauled everything outside and got it all set up. Then the craziness began. It seemed to come in waves. There would be no one or some people would stop and look but not buy anything. Then all of a sudden there would be lots of people buying! The big sellers were clothes and jewelry. All the kids toys I had sold. Except stuffed animals. I didn't sell one stuffed animal and I had a whole box! Books didn't sell as well as I thought either. By 9 am it still looked like we had a ton of stuff, so I marked everything half price.












The yard sale was supposed to end at 12, so we started packing stuff up at 12:15, but we still had 4-5 people stop to look while we were packing stuff up! Finally we had everything in trash bags and boxes to take to Goodwill. It was a ton of stuff!



We decided to take the women's clothes to try to sell them at a place in Cary called Plato's Closet that buys and then re-sells gently used clothing. But they told us they do not accept clothes in trash bags! Luckily I had some reusable grocery bags in my car and we went through 6-7 trash bags full of clothes and pulled out the cute brand name stuff that we thought they might buy right there in the parking lot. We ended up giving them 5 bags of clothes, shoes, and bags to go through.

Then it was back to Raleigh to drop off stuff at Goodwill. We gave them 6 bags of clothing and 6 boxes of shoes, bags, and other random stuff.

A few hours later I got the call from Plato's Closet that my stuff was ready, but they wouldn't tell me over the phone if they had bought anything. So I went all the way back out to Cary to discover they only took 2 pairs of shoes and a couple skirts and offered me $13.30 for them. Fine, but really that was not even worth it.

I bagged up the clothes they didn't take into 2 full trash bags and took those to Goodwill. Then I loaded the dining room table into my car to take to a girl at church that had bought it for $10. Last night I emptied all the baskets and took 3 boxes of stuff I didn't sell or give away up to my spare room to go through later. I loaded the tables I had borrowed in to my car and now my house is starting to look normal again.

It was exhausting though. And I don't know if I will ever do it again. That is the hardest I have ever worked for $250!

I do want to say a huge thank you to Meredith, Abby, Heather, and Kristin who all donated stuff to sell at the yard sale! Especially Abby who gave me probably more clothes than I have ever owned! And some really great bowls and tea kettles that all sold! Also Kristin was my savior! I could have never ever survived the day without her! Also a big thank you to my friend Jennifer who drove all the way out to see me and make a donation!! Also, witty guy, Meredith, and Kendall for letting me borrow tables and laundry baskets to put all the stuff on/in- thank you, thank you! One lady even commented that it was the most organized yard sale she had ever been to!

I am so glad it is over and I made some money for the trip! Combine the proceeds with other donations I got this week, and I have enough to apply for a scholarship! AND I only have $910 left to raise! For some reason being under that $1000 mark excites me so much!!

I want to know, have any of you had a yard sale? Was it just as hard or did I make this harder than it should have been??

Friday, April 9, 2010

Fill in the Blank Friday

Time for Fill in the Blank Friday! Play along with us over on Lauren's blog.


1. The strangest thing I've ever eaten was snails .

2. My best friend is so much like me that I think she can read my mind sometimes, but different enough to make up for areas I lack- she’s the perfect BIFF for me .

3. If I could live in a different era it would be whenever Jesus was alive because I would have loved to live that stuff and perhaps witness a miracle and get to meet Him .

4. I like boys, but I hate them sometimes too .

5. If you only know one thing about me it should be I’m as sweet as candy…sometimes sweeter .

6. My favorite book of all time is Summer Sisters by Judy Blume .

7. The one beauty product I couldn't live without is my chi straightner .

8. Blogging is amazing! I never thought it would grow into what it has and I would meet such AMAZING people through this .

9. If I could star in a movie with any actor/actress I would want to work with Ryan Renolds- hot and funny? Yes please! .

10. One of the best feelings in the world is a good long hug when you’ve had a bad day .


Saturday is my big yard sale for my mission trip. Yard Sales are a lot of work! I still am in need of some tables to put everything on and some boxes and/or laundry baskets to hold all the clothes I am trying to sell! I still need to make signs and put prices on everything. I still need to stop by some places to pick up some things people have donated. Then I will have to sort through everything tonight when I get home and get it ready to put out front at 7 am. It just might be an all-nighter!

Say a little prayer that people will show up and buy buy buy!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Old Photo

I discovered this new iphone app yesterday through one of the blogs I read (this is how I seem to discover all kinds of great new things lately!). It is called Old Photo and it is only $.99 and so worth it.

Here are some photos I took yesterday with it:










I love great photos! I am defiantly putting "Take a photography class" on my next list.

P.S. Thank you SO SO much to all of you have donated to my mission trip! I never thought complete strangers would support me in this! I LOVE you guys so much! The next deadline to turn in money is April 24th and I need about $600 more before that date. Be praying for a good turn-out for my yard sale!!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Fun? in Fundraising? I don't think so.

First I want to say a HUGE GIGANTIC THANK YOU to Aisha for donating to my Mission Trip! You have NO IDEA how much it means to me and it came at just the perfect time.

This fund raising thing is tough. Actually I really hate it. I hate it because I hate asking for help. I hate it because I feel like I have no control over the situation. I hate it because I worry what people think of me when I tell them about the trip and expose my religion and beliefs to them. I hate it because it is a lot of work. It is worse than applying for jobs. I write these hand written letters to everyone I can think of and they go in to a black hole and I never hear anything back.

When I do get a donation, you should see me. I squeel and do a little happy dance and praise God because I am literally shocked everytime it happens.

The first donation I got was from complete strangers. I had entered a contest to win $50 to do something good on the Disturbed Christians blog. The guy who writes for it commented back and asked me to email him about my trip. They sent me $100! Talk about a great start.

The only people that feel super-obligated when it comes to this stuff are family members. My family came through in a big way. My uncle donated $300 to the trip and my mom donated $600!

Then came the donation from Aisha and over the weekend an old co-worker of mine made a donation!

So I continue writing letters to friends and co-workers and praying and thinking of other ways to raise funds, but it still scares the crap out of me because I have no idea how I am going to raise the other $1700. It is part of the whole process though. Working hard and trusting God to provide. Now I just have to work on erasing that little twinge of doubt that He will leave me hanging.

Editor's Note: I hope to get back to a more regular blogging schedule but work has been crazy and my free time is sucked to the bone. Bear with me...I promise to have some good stuff on here soon!