Tonight we got to Facetime with one of the girls from our Bible study who is in a position where she is traveling all over the US right now. We hadn't talked to her in a few months and everyone had these amazing updates or major things that had changed in their lives and I had nothing. Nothing but car trouble and never ending silly work drama. My life is so stupid and pointless right now I feel. Nothing major has changed. Everyday feels the same. I am so lonely. I am so overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time.
I am kind of skipping Christmas this year. I didn't put up my tree. I did put up a few decorations, but it feels so....empty. I'm buying no gifts. I think I am going to give my mom $50 for a massage and give her money for one of the fancy pillows she is buying my uncle.
I have a lot to do. In fact I am probably going to be up making power point slides all night for a meeting in the morning. I am hoping my car will make it to work and back to the shop tomorrow since it decided to act a fool tonight and say I had no oil pressure even though I just got an oil change last week. Oh and I need 4 new tires. FOUR! I hate car stuff.
I went to a couple's baby shower this weekend and I was the only single person there. It is so depressing to look around the room and see all these couples and you have no one. I will never attend another couples shower again.
I feel so alone in life. Life is not supposed to be like this and I know it will never be perfect, but I could use something. Some kind of change.
Life is hard y'all.
4 comments:
Hang in there! When I logged into Facebook yesterday there were seven pregnant friends in my news feed. Then I logged off and threw a pity party for myself and a bottle of moscato.
Sometimes it's hard to comprehend why it seems like God is challenging us while blessing others, but a friend reminded me last night that everything is good in His time. I hope that things start turning around for you!
I'm so sorry that things are rough right now. I went through a similar patch a couple of months ago and it sucks! Hang on there!!
~Tiffany
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My heart is breaking for you. I know how hard it can be to have faith when it feels like nothing is going your way. I hope you can find strength in knowing that this too shall pass. In the meantime, try to focus on the positive things in your life. I know it can be hard to find those in times like this, but they exist. Sending hugs!
My dear friend - my circumstances are different, but I'm feeling much like yourself ... and I'm totally not into Christmas this year, at all. At least you still have your mom! (((( )))) I just wanted to send you a hug!
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